Free.

A thousand, maybe more, memories swirl in my head as I think back. I think of nothing in particular, nothing in general. I just think of life so far. And I’m awestruck at how I’ve changed.

One thing that always remained constant though was my fear of what lay ahead. The fear of getting hurt; the fear of having nobody; the fear of losing; the fear of being better but not the best…The fear of the future.

But suddenly, it’s gone. I’ll be lying if I say I don’t think of the future. I do. But I’m not scared anymore.

I don’t know whether it’s the loss of love or the gain of a new love, but one of them has taught me to live in the Now. To live for the Now.

My Life at the mo:
I don’t have a full-time job.

I’m 23 (almost) and am asking dad for dough. Heck, I didn’t do that when I was 16!

My savings are nothing to boast of!

I still don’t have that glass closet of heels, flats, pumps.

I’m running out of clothes.

I haven’t joined belly dancing.

I haven’t joined horse riding.

I don’t want to move to Bombay.

Pune doesn’t really have too many options for me.

I (still) can’t cook, except for chocolate mousse!

I sleep a lot through the day!

The only day I really, really, really look forward to and am wide awake for is Wednesday.

But everyday, every hour, every minute, every second, I smile.

:)

It's love. That’s it! I just know that’s it. For me, Love has always taken first place. But Love, as I’ve known it before, has made me fear, has made me pine, has given me pain, has made me cry. Love, as I’ve known it before, has made me worry about that love not being there anymore.

But not now. Love, as I know it now, makes me smile, makes me blush, makes me shy, makes me thankful, makes me satisfied,makes me love myself. Love, as I know it now, sets me free.

I’m not scared anymore. The constant fear has left me. Coz I know, whatever happens, love will always find me, love will always be there.

Being in love had always been a weakness. I like the use of ‘had’ in that sentence :), coz now, being in love… in love with him…is my strongest strength.

It’s crazy love, right love, happy love :) It’s one-of-a-kind love :) It’s the Him-n-Me love :) :) :)