Promises

…It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood…
You see, I’ve always been a fighter
But without you, I give up.


You promised me promises,
You promised me hugs and kisses,
You promised you’ll never break my heart,
You promised you wouldn’t let us be apart,
You promised you’ll be there…always,
You promised we’ll be together till the end of our days…
But not one of them did you keep,
You took away my smile, my sleep,
You left me alone,
You broke the threads I’d lovingly sown,
You just gave me tears,
Sleepless nights and fears,
My eyes look for you in everyone I meet,
A thought of ‘us’ still makes my heart beat,
But the pain throbs,
And the tears drop,
I try to let go,
My head says yes, my heart says no,
I’m a fool to still believe,
That you’ll never let me leave,
A fool to think you care,
No matter with whom why, how or where,
I wonder if you even know how much I’m hurting inside,
Seems like a part of me just died,
I cry as I write,
Dreading the approaching long night,
Everyday, I promise myself to try,
To take deep breaths and keep my eyes dry,
To move on,
To a new life, a new dawn,
To forget the pain,
To get a grip and grasp the reins,
And ride away from thoughts and memories of things you’ve done and still do…
And forget that I said ‘I love you’ to you…